This girl is going to hell

I am the worst blogger on earth...I havent posted since January and I apologize...I hope everyone is well..i am and I am busting my ass daily to hit goal!

2009 Back on the ball

I gained 9.2 lbs in two weeks...Im a fat ass right now!!!!! anywho Im back on track and im offically blaming the weight gain on having a vagina. Goddam bloating..guys are so effing lucky, i wish once a month their balls swelled and caused them to gain 10 lbs. ok so now that my rant is over I just wanna wish you all the best in this new year..2008 was full of the good (losing 100+ lbs) the bad (losing my Mela, falling in and out of love) and the ugly (realizing im gonna have to get shit loads of skin removed) but I am excited to see what 2009 brings...I already know that my summer months are gonna be full , Parites, weddings, travel...Im wondering how much i can cram in!...so heres to you 2009 , may you fill my life with new and exciting adventures!

BAD BLOGGER Tsk Tsk Tsk

I havent written in over a month...well over a month..well first and foremost I am at 117.8 lbs gone!! awesome yes....Other than that I have been submereged in Twilight Saganess...I have read each book 4 times and i never get enough...Lame I know! Anywho other than that I have been working my tail off.. and trying to get shit together..Today is christmas...bah humbug!!! Im just not into it this year for some reason. But I have gotten some really great gifts and Im beyond appriciative for them. Im heading over to the besties house this afternoon so I can give her her gift...shes a twilighter as well so her whole gift is based on it! well i hope you all have a good day and a Happy new year cause i Know my lame ass wont be writing until after the new year

i know right...

Its been just over a month since my last post...i know..far too long..and seriously not much has happened..oh wait thats right in that time I hit my 100 lbs lost mark and am now at 105 lost in 11 months which is awesome to say the least. I am in the midst of a flirtationship..not bf/gf but we are having fun to say the least..only prob is he is living in san diego and for those who dont know that is about 700 miles from me. we do have a good time if you catch my drift!..lol..Im looking forward to the Holidays as they are my favorite time of year...i love the smells and the decorations and the fun of everyone being together. Im def. more of a giver than a taker..sometimes to a fault. I would much rather spend the money on someone i love than on myself..this year me and my besties are doing this thing where we picked names and we have to do our interpritation of one another on canvas...im lagging but i already know what im gonna do. i got my best friend natalie's name and i know her well enough to do this. As most know i am an outspoken democrat so needless to say i was beyond stoked over the election of Barack Obama...these are exciting times. mucho amor to al my peoples..ill be updating more often now i promise!

YOU blew my mind this time boys &ILL BE LOVIN YOU 4-EVA~~

I WENT TO SEE MY BELOVED NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK LAST NIGHT...AMAZING...MY #1 ALLTIME FAV SHOW...AND I GO TO ALOT OF SHOWS!! I WAS LIKE A 10 YR OLD GIRL ALL OCER AGAIN AND I WOULDNT TRADE LAST NIGHT FOR ANYTHING..UNLESS OF COURSE IT WAS A NIGHT HANGING OUT WITH MY BOYS!

OK so I didnt get it

I hit 99 lbs gone this week...i wanted my 100 but alas it still beckons me... I will get it next week especially because im picking up 2 extra yoga and zumba classes this week!

My everything...My anything

I'm am a complete and total Audiophile..I admit that. I love music, we have a relationship music and I, its not love/hate, its love/love/love. Saturday night I went to see Nick and Norah's Infinite playlist and I must say that no movie has ever been to the root of me like this. The bands were some of my favorites so I found myself singing along with a knowing admiration that can only be described as adoration. If you love music see this movie..but if you love Indie music...live this movie!!

If we should meet again way on down the road..do me this one favor and pretend we never knew

That you were part of me cause you're gone...96.4 to be exact! lost 3lbs this week and i feel great...3.6 to the 100 lb mark!!!!

We are Family.hey hey hey hey hey!!

So this past weekend My parents and I headed down to ventura for My grandma's 70th birthday party. It was a blast but even more exciting was My dad meeting his brother for the first time!..p.s I couldnt have a cooler uncle, aunt and cousins!. It was funny to see how much alike they are even in manurisns..so im hitching up a picture so you can see for yourself

93.4 lbs gone picture!!

Vacation all i ever wanted!

Im home..have been for 4 days..Had a blast but am glad to be back..Its starting to feel like fall around here...I can smell it in the air and to say that im happy would be an understatment...I love fall...the cooler weather..the tight jeans knee high boots and sweaters...makeup not melting off...Fall love...Yay

I am a hardcore believer in the idea that If you do not Try to make a difference, you should not cry when things stay the same, If you are not willing to listen, you should not be hurt when no one hears your cries.If you do not vote, you should not complain. At this point we cannot afford not to vote...Democrat, Republican, Independant, Green, Just do it. You were lucky enough to be born in a country where this is possible...You have the ability to HONESTLY ellect someone...To have your voice heard..To speak your mind..By Voting (for whoever you choose) your saying that you not only care about what happens to this country, but that you have a say in what happens to it!

stuff

This week was ok..lost 0.4 lbs...total of 86.8...i want that 90 this week..i really do...But who knows..im doing my best to stay op and it seems to be going well...I got in some unintended exercise 2 nigths in a row...i scrubbed floors on my hands and knees for 2 hrs friday night...and for at least 45 yesterday..i was sweating like a whore in church...it felt good but i could have done more. Next monday the 1st i leave for a week long vacation.. we rented a beach house in Pismo nad im really excited...im happy that we did this because i can control what im eating..we wont be eating out every day but for teh days we do we pre chose eateries in teh area and i parused menus to see what i can have and not have..all in all a well planned vaca!

What Hurts The Most

Is watching someone you love self destruct and there is not a damn thing you can do about it...When no matter what you do or say it cant stop the momentum of chaos in someones life. You have to sit by and watch it happen and hope that they make it through...Im learning for teh first time that i cannot fix everything and more importantly that it is not my job to. Dont get me wrong I want more than anything to make it all go away for her and make it better but its at the point where only she can do it..My only hope is that its not too late!

are you fucking kidding me?!?!

I weighed in thursday and its taken me this long to post because its taken me this long to come to terms with the fact that i gained 4.6 lbs.....4.6...im under theassumption that its water weight due to my impending TOM...but seriously nothing is a blow to the spirit like a gain!

This vacation cant get here soon enough

I cant wait till this month is over so I can enjoy y trip to pismo beach...i need to get away from everything and everyone so i can breath

Stupid people fucking annoy me!

I have a general hatred for people who are just plain stupid...not always intellectually but mainly about life...Maybe i just don't understand how people allow themselves to act in certain ways...One thing that has really been peeving me lately is Double standards...men and women alike who aren't even mildly attractive having standards that are unrealistic as well as unachievable....there was this guy on the Tyra show recently who must have weighed 400lbs though he claimed to be only 280 ...he stated that he would never be with someone who is over a size 6 or 8...but he expects someone not to hold him to those same standards. I have guys who are my "type" but I'm not exclusive to that...i don't count people out just because they don't fit this perfect mold that quite honestly most people create out of their own insecurities...I just wish people would chill the fuck out and not worry so much about what people will think...honestly who fucking cares!

have you ever?

Have you ever done something that in theory is like the best idea ever and your totally stoked to do it and then you do it and regret it immediately?....not gonna go into specifice but did that sat. night and it wasnt the best idea..cause it might really ruin something for me./

This bitch got her 80lb award today!

Yay...im so stoked lost 3.6 bringing me to 83.2 lbs lost...i can taste that 100 mark

BAck From the DEad

I just had my ass royally kicked by the stomach flu!