I am a hardcore believer in the idea that If you do not Try to make a difference, you should not cry when things stay the same, If you are not willing to listen, you should not be hurt when no one hears your cries.If you do not vote, you should not complain. At this point we cannot afford not to vote...Democrat, Republican, Independant, Green, Just do it. You were lucky enough to be born in a country where this is possible...You have the ability to HONESTLY ellect someone...To have your voice heard..To speak your mind..By Voting (for whoever you choose) your saying that you not only care about what happens to this country, but that you have a say in what happens to it!

stuff

This week was ok..lost 0.4 lbs...total of 86.8...i want that 90 this week..i really do...But who knows..im doing my best to stay op and it seems to be going well...I got in some unintended exercise 2 nigths in a row...i scrubbed floors on my hands and knees for 2 hrs friday night...and for at least 45 yesterday..i was sweating like a whore in church...it felt good but i could have done more. Next monday the 1st i leave for a week long vacation.. we rented a beach house in Pismo nad im really excited...im happy that we did this because i can control what im eating..we wont be eating out every day but for teh days we do we pre chose eateries in teh area and i parused menus to see what i can have and not have..all in all a well planned vaca!

What Hurts The Most

Is watching someone you love self destruct and there is not a damn thing you can do about it...When no matter what you do or say it cant stop the momentum of chaos in someones life. You have to sit by and watch it happen and hope that they make it through...Im learning for teh first time that i cannot fix everything and more importantly that it is not my job to. Dont get me wrong I want more than anything to make it all go away for her and make it better but its at the point where only she can do it..My only hope is that its not too late!

are you fucking kidding me?!?!

I weighed in thursday and its taken me this long to post because its taken me this long to come to terms with the fact that i gained 4.6 lbs.....4.6...im under theassumption that its water weight due to my impending TOM...but seriously nothing is a blow to the spirit like a gain!

This vacation cant get here soon enough

I cant wait till this month is over so I can enjoy y trip to pismo beach...i need to get away from everything and everyone so i can breath